Every time, when I see the gap between my loved ones and I, I feel sad. I can accept it. It hurts me each time. I will cry. I will pray and let my heartache translate into unconditional love of God. I will play guitar and let the sadness translate into music. My throat will become tensed, cause I have so much to say but I swallow it back, knowing my words will not bring any good. Just let it be, turning inward and turning into pure love.
Love, now I know you more. I still love them. Not because of what they can do for me. But just the heart, the relationship. I have no more fear in my sadness and grief, my feelings. Love will go around and it won’t stop, because it is simply amazing! I am taking up unconditional love. I am giving up expectation and fear. God has given me comfort and power. For God has not given us the spirit of fear but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. (2 Tim 1:7)
I am going to have fun and joy in life, for it is nourishing to life! Jesus, stay with me, be my shepherd and I shall not be in want. (Psalm 23:1).