Recently I notice how I build my foundation of relationship.
I notice that I built the foundation of relationship on people’s response! So if people have something else to do and can’t accept my invitation, I feel rejected. If people don’t reply me, I feel rejected. I am blaming everything to communication. One of my survival mechanism is Pious Orphan. Since I afraid rejection so much, so I keep to myself.
But now I understand, the foundation of relationship is building on something bigger. If it is with family, it is build on blood. If it is with brother sister in Christ, it is build on Christ. If it’s with friend, it is build on love. If it’s with stranger, it is build on my being and character.
Thanks Holy Spirit for the journey through! I feel so much secure about relationship now..