Today I read an article talking about standing firm and letting go. Letting go is not giving up. Letting go takes lot of courage and power too. While we let go, we stand firm on something. While we stand firm on one thing, we also let go other things. It’s always a choice.
My heart was so touched when I read it. I cried. I thought of the ministry I served. I stood firm and let go and stood firm and let go again. The first time I was against my family and future. The second time I was against my own needs and support system. The third time was to complete my commitment with God in spite of brokenness. The fourth time I saw the need of my spiritual stillness and restfulness in Him and I moved forward from my comfort zone. And I asked God why is this happening. It’s not easy . As I look at my heart , I found that every time, the decisions I made was for God and His kingdom.
Life is like the sea, the wave comes and go. There are times for tide. And we surf with skill, observing the wave and current, we meet the crest and overcome another big white tide. We thrive or we go under the water. We swim and we come back to stand on the board again. The sun above us, the sea under us. It’s exciting to surf the sea of life!
13 Feb 2018 – Jim Downing (104 years old) went home with the Father. I met him for one night in 2017. He was one of the speakers for GSP. I remember his spirit, when I saw him, I just respect him, and I want to stay with him. He was so chilled and full of wisdom. I am glad that I spent extra minutes with him after his talk. He had lived up to 2 Tim 4:7-8
I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, and I have remained faithful. And now the prize awaits me—the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will give me on the day of his return. And the prize is not just for me but for all who eagerly look forward to his appearing.
I cried for him, for a great soul that went home. And I wanna run the race and finish well like he did. I want to shine to the world even to my last day on this earth. I don’t know how and where I will be, but I will always be close to the Lord.
He has passed the torch to many, and I am blessed to receive.
It was my home
I came after it and claimed it mine
In many attempts I failed
My home is no longer mine
It has found an owner
Distant from me
Still all the fond memories live in it
I am glad I had a home
I grew up there with lovely people
Simple and warm everyday
Laughter and goodness dwelled with us
I miss the home
Now my home is where I am
I wander, I venture, I embrace the wind
I bring my home with me everywhere
And my true home in heaven
Today God brought me down to my knee. His Spirit filled my heart with thankfulness. God has blessed me with time and resources, and that I can bless others. I want to claim His promise:
and if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in the darkness, and your night will become like the noonday. The LORD will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail
God, lead me and open my eyes to see where I can start at where I am. I am weak and anxious, I need You to give me courage and peace for the journey!
I do not have much to look forward for happy moments. But I can always start to live happier each day and create happy memory for myself. Then next year, next time, I will have something to look forward for🤗 I can always start with whatever ‘little oil’ I have and God will provide!
I am lost. When I look at nobody, I don’t who I want to become. I do not want to live in someone else’s expectation too. But I am lost.
God found me. He has desire to personally involve with me. When I look at Him, I found love, I found life.
He loves me. He will be found when I seek Him. He is always there. God loves me so much (Pro 8:17).
God wants to satisfy my soul, with no cost or labour from my pocket. He want to make an everlasting covenant with me. He will not forsake me. I will not be alone. He wants me to live my soul to the fullest. He is committed to me. (Isa 55:1-3)
God wants me to come to Him. He wants to give me rest in my soul. He wants me to take His yoke upon me and learn from Him. He is not afraid of my burden. He is not afraid of my negativity. He has compassion for me.(Mat 11:28-30)
God is faithful! He promise and fulfill. He spoke and he will act. (Num 23:19)
God has given me His Son, He gave me His most precious Son so that I can come back to Him! His love for me is not separable by hardship, trouble, persecution, famine, nakedness, danger or sword! (Rom 8:31-34)
God I miss you! I am full of joy to find You through Your Words. They are lamppost to who You ARE. Your Spirit is in the Word; I cherish them to my heart.
Do I miss you?
I kept all my ‘how are you?’ in a box
I imagine meeting you again
I will be speechless
Words and feelings running in a ten thousand miles per second
And all that I can do is to stare at you for five seconds and say ‘hi, long time no see’
Turning away I pretend I do not care for you
Only God knows, if I stand a little closer, I will fall again